8:10 PM | Author: Encore

This are some valid reason why I can't leave IBM.

1. In 6 months, if IOP won't drop it will be a open surgery. Dra. Hizon discussed to me how its done. She said its like the Laser shot that I had but the only difference is Laser shots creates window and the surgery opens a door. So basically, they will open a big hole on both eyes to ease the pressure inside.
2. This is hereditary, I asked her about my kids possibility having the same disease. She said it is early to tell, the symptom shows when kids reaches 10. I'm praying that they won't get this disease.
3. Standby medications. I will need to doze more med to stabilized IOP or else it will create more damage in my eyes.
4. Tin and Tares eye care. Tin has blurry vision, she needed to wear eyeglass or contact lenses. Tares, need the eyeglass too. Reimbursement for eye check is a huge help. I'm sharing the eyeglass too.
5. Perimerty and OCT every 3 months, this cost around 3k up per sessions.

I can't be selfish now. I know I don't like this anymore but with this "reasons" I must keep going.
5:25 PM | Author: Encore
Nung huling maramdaman ko ito, nag resigned ako. Madali lang nun, AWOL kung awol kaso iba pa kasi nun - single! Sarili ko lang nag iniisip ko, so parang wala naman kaso. Uuwi ako sa bahay, magpapahinga. May kakainin at makakain naman pagkagising ko then pag OK na uli, job hunt again. Dati yun, iba ngayun.

Same shit! Dragging myself again, ganito yata talaga. May expiration ako sa work, I can't last for more pag wala naman napapala. This is not good, it is really hard. I hope everything will be OK.

January palang, 11 more months. =(